Be a light in the dark. Shine brightly for those who have lost their way in the storm. Use your story to help another person continue their own. You are loved. You are significant. You belong here. Be blessed!
Sometimes I wake up and am lost in my own skin. I drive for hours in my mind never knowing where I’m going. I take detours in memories I’d rather have forgotten. Sometimes every heartbeat makes me ache, each breath is a struggle for me. Sometimes I lie there wondering how this could be my story…
But even on those days — I get up. I try to live, and I do the best I can in my chaotic state. I put food in my body, clothes on my skin, and I go out into the world. Even though I struggle on those days, I know that not trying isn’t the path I should travel down. Not trying, not fighting, not living is not going to help any of us.
That’s all the really matters — that we keep trying, keep fighting, and keep breathing. I hope that wherever you are in this world that despite the waves that try to pull you under you won’t give in. I pray you’ll keep swimming until you reach the shore. I wish with all my heart that you won’t give up on your story just because this chapter has been heartbreaking.
I believe that there is always a reason to hold on, even if it’s just the tiniest flicker of hope. Find your reason, know that you are worthy of life, and take it a day at a time.
It’s hard because of pride.
We want to be on the receiving end of an apology rather than be the one giving it. If you need to give an apology it’s because you did something to hurt someone, but it you need to receive an apology it’s because someone did something to hurt you.
In your case it seems you’ve been hurt and you have hurt, so in all honesty lay down your pride about who should be first and just love them enough to apologize.
Ask yourself if it’s better to stay silent, stay distant, and stay hurt rather than make the effort to repair a relationship that matters to you. Whatever hurt you can only be fixed when dealt with. Whatever you did to wrong them can only be made right if you talk to each other about it.
Don’t let pride get in the way of communicating. Let them have the chance to apologize and to let you know how they were hurt.
Time is too precious and fleeting to waste not mending what we can.
This isn’t something I can answer for you because I’m neither a doctor nor licensed professional.
The best advice I can give you is, if you are feeling out of control and you feel like you need help whether through counseling, medication, or both then you should see a doctor and go from there.
If you feel like you are going to hurt yourself, then you should definitely stop saying you are fine and tell the people around you and a professional about how you are feeling.
Don’t hide your pain, don’t bottle it up inside, and don’t pretend to be okay when you are not okay.
Ask for help until you get the help you need.
I’m getting quite a few sweet anon messages lately. I hope wherever you are that you continue to choose hope, choose peace, and choose to breathe even when you feel cared and lost.
May you find warmth and comfort in much more than my words, but in yourself and you own light and awesomeness!
It really is amazing how a complete stranger can affect another person, and I’m thankful that I can impact you in a positive way. I hope that you continue to find inspiration in me, but even more so in yourself and the world around you.
You are very welcome. I’m really thankful for this wonderful message. What a great way to start my day. I’m thankful when bealightinthedark has any impact. May this continue to be a place that encourages you, comforts you, and challenges you to let go of anything and everything that weighs you down so you can be free, so you can choose better!